Could It Be?
So long now I have prayed for a precious little one;
To feel Your gift within my womb, and know their life’s begun.
To get the nursery ready, filling it with baby things galore
And of course there’s anticipation of something so much more…
That wonderful, special day, oh I can see it so very clear,
When I wrap that precious little one in my arms and hold them oh so near!
There are no words to describe the barrenness of the womb
Nor the mothering instincts of a woman, just longing to set full bloom.
It’s hard to understand, Lord, why so many years go by
Shedding tears of sorrow as I try to figure out why.
As I have prayed and searched for answers, I feel Your gentle touch
Guiding me to wisdom…You’ve allowed me to see so much!
How could I be so blind, so blind not to see?
What makes a child so special is YOU, not the genes in me!
Children to You are precious, so precious in Your sight
And though they did not come from Your womb, You love them with all Your might!
Could it be Dear Lord that it’s not beneath my heart that You choose to let our child begin?
But instead You begin their life within our hearts and with it a love that will never end!
Could it be Dear Lord that my womb has remained barren because Your plan is to say,
“I have such a precious gift to give; it’s just going to be given in a different way!”?
If it is Your divine will to bless us Lord in this special way
I lift up to You this precious little one wherever they are today!
Please give them health and keep them safe until that awesome day
When we can hold them in our arms and tell them, “You’re here to stay!”
So long now I have prayed for a precious little one;
To feel Your gift within my womb, and know their life’s begun.
To get the nursery ready, filling it with baby things galore
And of course there’s anticipation of something so much more…
That wonderful, special day, oh I can see it so very clear,
When I wrap that precious little one in my arms and hold them oh so near!
There are no words to describe the barrenness of the womb
Nor the mothering instincts of a woman, just longing to set full bloom.
It’s hard to understand, Lord, why so many years go by
Shedding tears of sorrow as I try to figure out why.
As I have prayed and searched for answers, I feel Your gentle touch
Guiding me to wisdom…You’ve allowed me to see so much!
How could I be so blind, so blind not to see?
What makes a child so special is YOU, not the genes in me!
Children to You are precious, so precious in Your sight
And though they did not come from Your womb, You love them with all Your might!
Could it be Dear Lord that it’s not beneath my heart that You choose to let our child begin?
But instead You begin their life within our hearts and with it a love that will never end!
Could it be Dear Lord that my womb has remained barren because Your plan is to say,
“I have such a precious gift to give; it’s just going to be given in a different way!”?
If it is Your divine will to bless us Lord in this special way
I lift up to You this precious little one wherever they are today!
Please give them health and keep them safe until that awesome day
When we can hold them in our arms and tell them, “You’re here to stay!”
I wrote this poem after suffering through infertility for about 5 years. I had always held on with a fist tight grip to MY plans and MY agenda that I thank God every day for opening my eyes to HIS plans and HIS agenda! After 6 long years of infertility and longing so desperately to be a mom, Derrick and I were gifted with one of the most amazing gifts...far more than I could have ever imagined...our precious Eli Zane! 14 years ago today our precious son was born. Although I did not carry Eli in my womb, I cannot imagine loving him any more than I do. My heart is so full of gratitude first of all to God for having such a bigger picture and plan in mind for us. Also for his birth mother who made the choice to give Eli life and for allowing us the privilege to be his parents!
Eli is an amazing young man with a tender heart. He is our rule follower and makes sure everyone else stays in line with the rules as well. He is smart, handsome, a great big brother, a talented basketball player, a huge help to me as our oldest and most importantly he loves the Lord! I love watching him grow in stature (he loves that he is taller than me now) and in his relationship with Jesus. I love him more than words can describe and feel so blessed to be his Mama!
If you are reading this today and are suffering with infertility, please open your heart to God's bigger picture! It truly makes my heart cringe when I hear couples say that they just want to wait and "have kids of their own". Having now both adopted and biological children, I can tell you that there is absolutely no difference in the love that I have for them and our adopted sons are just as much our own as the ones I gave birth to! You could possibly be missing out on the greatest blessing that God wants to give you!
If by some chance these pages cross the path of someone contemplating abortion, please choose to give your baby life!!! There are many couples who would love to raise your sweet baby and give them love and provision that you don't feel as though you can. The world would not be the same if Eli Zane was not a part of it and I know God has a plan for your baby as well!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELI!!!
Eli is an amazing young man with a tender heart. He is our rule follower and makes sure everyone else stays in line with the rules as well. He is smart, handsome, a great big brother, a talented basketball player, a huge help to me as our oldest and most importantly he loves the Lord! I love watching him grow in stature (he loves that he is taller than me now) and in his relationship with Jesus. I love him more than words can describe and feel so blessed to be his Mama!
If you are reading this today and are suffering with infertility, please open your heart to God's bigger picture! It truly makes my heart cringe when I hear couples say that they just want to wait and "have kids of their own". Having now both adopted and biological children, I can tell you that there is absolutely no difference in the love that I have for them and our adopted sons are just as much our own as the ones I gave birth to! You could possibly be missing out on the greatest blessing that God wants to give you!
If by some chance these pages cross the path of someone contemplating abortion, please choose to give your baby life!!! There are many couples who would love to raise your sweet baby and give them love and provision that you don't feel as though you can. The world would not be the same if Eli Zane was not a part of it and I know God has a plan for your baby as well!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELI!!!
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