My last heart post I shared about a series of choices that left my heart cold, my relationship with Jesus distant and those around me very hurt. My post went on to say that I now have the choice to remain in my guilt and shame or to accept the love and forgiveness of my Heavenly Father and walk in that freedom.
Over the last year and a half I have chosen to walk forward in the Lord’s healing but there are so many days when those that I’ve hurt want to continue viewing me as that person in bondage and it’s honestly been like chains around my ankles that allow me to move forward to an extent but then I’m stuck. The chains won’t allow me to go any further. I begin believing the lies all over again that I am not worthy of God’s love or the love of my family and friends. That because of my past, God will never be able to use my life again for His glory.
I truly never ever thought this would be part of my story and yet…. Here I am. Through all of this, however, I have learned one major thing. My people pleaser self needs the approval of no one else other than my loving Savior. My very Creator who knew I would mess up before He even knit me together in my mother’s womb and He chose to die on an old rugged cross for the very choices I made so that I could be forgiven.
I have experienced His grace in a way that I had only counseled about before.
I have felt Him chasing when I was running away and embracing me when I was ready to surrender. I have experienced His unconditional love and goodness in the midst of my consequences and though many tears have been shed, His joy is what is getting me through the hard circumstances of where I am today.
So I want to encourage you today with this…. Jesus loves you more than you could ever fathom. There is nothing that you could ever do to keep Him from loving you. Don’t allow what’s in your past to rob you of one more day of joy! Jesus promises us in His word that for those who love Him, He will turn the worst of circumstances and make them good. (Roman’s 8:28) He is a faithful, loving God who wants you to live in the freedom that He offers. There is room at His table for you….
I heard this song the other day and it reached into the depths of my soul to know and recognize the Father’s love for me. He loves me just where I am. I don’t have to prove anything to Him. He is proud of me and I know He will use what I’ve walked through for His glory.
Though I am not a technical person and don’t have great piano skills, I wanted to share this song with you.
I hope it blesses you like it did me. ❤️